Without Me

For Yao Xi, the view of a live grandfather was comparable to a small child whose mother died and suddenly returned from the Underworld.

She could not control the tornado of emotions that had taken over full control over her body and soul.

She blamed herself for grandfather's death in a previous life. If Yao Xi did not somehow provoke Ruo Yan, she would have any reason to hurt Elder Li.

The only reason Yao Xi came to mind is her unexpected pregnancy. She was after the divorce of Li Ye Han, so Ruo Yan's position was not threatened. What else if the child with the first wife were involved. Then, even if Ruo Yan married Li Ye Han and had children with him, they would have a much lower position in the family than the child of Yao Xi. But from where did Ruo Yan know about Yao Xi's pregnancy? Is Li Ye Han told her, because he did not want to have any secrets from the love of his life? Yao Xi sent a picture of their child's sonogram along with a letter in which she begged him to look after their child. Is that what Ruo Yan learned from here? Did Li Ye Han consult with her how to raise this child?

Everything was in a logical whole. Grandfather died only by Yao Xi. If only she was strong enough to resist Li Ye Han that night ... If she had decided on self-defense courses earlier, would she be able to stand up to him then?

These questions still circulated in Yao Xi's head, merging into the brain, which caused her to blame herself again and again.

Now that she saw grandfather, the same questions again appeared in the mind of Yao Xi, triggering another uncontrollable crying attack.

"There, there" reassured senior Li, as if he was trying to tame a homeless and scared cat. "Everything will be fine, don't be afraid. No one else will hurt you until your grandfather is here. "

Yao Xi sniffed. Her voice would break if she tried to say something. These words were like putting a knife at the heart of Yao Xi. Grandpa was so good to her, despite the lack of relationship, and yet she ultimately hurt him. She was so full of guilt, that couldn't stand his delicate tone.

Everything would have gone different if she had not fallen in love with Li Ye Han. If she did not give him her whole being, she could save her grandfather from the wicked Ruo Yan. She could then live her marriage in indifference. It wouldn't hurt to see Li Ye Han from Ruo Yan. And above all, Ruo Yan would have no reason to feel any threat from her.

Yao Xi bit her lip and squeezed her eyelids tight, trying to control the powerful anger she was waking up in her. She did not want grandpa to worry about her, so she used all her strong will to stop the lava of fury that was about to break out of her like a volcano.

After a few calming breaths, she managed to calm down enough to say words that were soaked in every cell of her being: "I missed you so much, grandpa ..."

"Stupid girl" scolded her, but he could not stop the tears falling into eyes. He hugged Yao Xi more tightly to his c.h.e.s.t, trying not to damage her wounds, and when he felt her emotional state calming down, he moved back a little to get a better look at her face.

She was still morbidly pale, with dark circles under her swollen eyelids and disheveled hair. But Yao Xi's eyes remained pure and sincere. He saw in them an undisturbed longing, sadness and loneliness, and this sight squeezed his heart.

When she saved him from drowning three years ago, he initially only wanted to give her a large sum of money as compensation, but the girl was gone without a trace.

Senior Li valued honor very highly, that's why he ordered to find his savior at all costs and repay his debt, and when he managed to track her, he personally went to the Yan family with thanks.

However, when he saw her, he could not believe his eyes.

The young girl's gaze was empty and devoid of l.u.s.ter, as if she were a soulless doll. She did not even remember him. She also forgot that she had saved his life as if it were the least important thing. She treated him as if he was irrelevant.

Unlike her family, she did not try to impress him or gain any favors. She just nodded in response to his thanks, as if she did not care.

Her attitude and approach to him was so different from what he was used to, that he did not know whether to feel happy, that there is someone who does not care about his status, or feel humiliated that in her eyes his so little important .

However, after a long look at the attitude and personality of the girl, he came to the conclusion that not only he in her eyes is irrelevant. She behaved like this to everyone and everything, as if what was going on around her did not affect her at all. As if she had no d.e.s.i.r.e to live.

It was an impulse. Suddenly he wanted to make a spark of life in those dead eyes.

He was old and in his life he saw and experienced a lot. There was nothing that would surprise him. Until he met this poor child.