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Li Yuan and Lan Lan have been drunk. Those two peoples even fell asleep and mumbled about something.

Li Yuan sat down and bowed her head on the table. Meanwhile, Lan Lan on Xi's side was lying beside Xi, He raised her head in Xi's l.a.p. It looks like a high school girl, seen as a lazy pig.

Xi only sat while spending the sake of his cup.

Some things make Xi a little curious. When he enjoys the remains of sake in his cup. A feeling wet through his pants. When he looks at the top of his zipper. He found Lan Lan drooling from the edge of her lips.

Xi's expression turned into bad. He found that the elephant trunk under his zipper has been stained by disgusting saliva from this sixteen-year-old girl.

-Hey Ian Lan meimei, stop drooling my pants like that! Don't make my assets feel cold and wetness there.

Xi switched Lan Lan's head down from his l.a.p. Although Xi is a straight man, he's still a normal man. How can he stand if Lan Lan's saliva wets his future investment pipe? The asset behind his pants is an asset that can't be wet and cooled by random peoples. Even if it's wet and cooled by underage girls.

Forget about underage girls, Xi won't even give a woman on m.a.t.u.r.e age into drooling and lubricate his assets.

While Li Yuan was in front of Xi, she blabbered about something.

"Wuuuwu… you are a student like a son of a bitch! "

Li Yuan sobbed for a reason.

"*sob…* sob… you've pushed your teacher into bed. Then, you make me walk like there's a mountain between my legs… "

" So now…. you're saying that you're not interested in a flat-c.h.e.s.t girl? "

" You hentai! Hetare! Bastard Rapist! Sukebe! Die! Just die there! "

Li Yuan's words really surprised Xi.

He even fell so badly to hear those words.

- You… how shameless! Say nothing embarrassing like that!

-Look, where we are now?

Xi noticed there were eyes that saw him like a knife. That's sharp and piercing.

-Ok… I've been thinking, I'm a little impertinent pushing you on the bed.

- I admit my mistake. I was wrong about my indecent actions.

- But, does it deserve you to say it here? What if, peoples think I was a rogue rapist who attacked his own teacher?

-I can go to jail! Many people can castrate me! I will be a eunuch if so!

" You're shameless, Yang'er… you even pinching my c.h.e.s.t evenly, l.i.c.k.i.n.g it and even saying it's pretty. Wuwuwu..."

"And now...Now you're saying that my c.h.e.s.t doesn't meet your criteria? Are you a douche guy? Punk! Wuuuwu."

Xi's ear is flushed. The events after him and Li Yuan came home from One Rose Bar utterly not attached to his brain or more like they don't remember at all.

Xi only remembered that night he felt boiling in his head… the elephant's trunk under his stomach is too enthusiastic than usual. It's even standing like a fighter, even when they're still in the bar.

But, Xi doesn't know at all, what causes the trunk of an elephant to be so excited?

-Sensei, don't say such embarrassing things. I accidentally imagined an event I don't remember at all.

" You say my c.h.e.s.t is a laundry board? Why did you kiss, lick, pinch even praise? *sob *sob "

Li Yuan's words are like dropping a new atomic bomb into Xi's back. Xi cannot deny that. Only Li Yuan remembers that incident. So, he let the girl keep babbling about the indecent incident they did.

While Mrs. Lan who just came from the kitchen smiled dark and looked at Xi like Xi was dog shit.

"Ara-Ara, do I have to make a report about Little Li's words? It looks like you've attacked this cute girl… "

Xi's facial have changed. Sweat as big as a corn seed running on his forehead. Her facial expression is tense.

"Hehe, Auntie could be joking. That's just the word of a drunk girl… don't worry about it. * *Tehee…. "

Xi poses like anime characters. However, the nervousness on his face couldn't lie to that middle-aged woman.

Lan's mother was an open-minded mother. She has thought s.e.x and youth are commonplace. She even did something similar to her husband. However, if it was her daughter, she would hang a man who dared to touch her sweet daughter. Although that man is Xi, she will not sit idle. Her daughter had to finish education and get a decent job before doing these things and those things with loved ones.

Lan Lan's mother sat next to Lan Lan's dead body. Lan Lan is still drooling from her lips.

" Ahh… this girl really doesn't keep her appearance…"

"Can't she keep the ethics, to look like a decent woman to someone she likes? How can you get his attention if you own such a bad habit? "

That woman can only complain.

Xi didn't know what the mean Mrs. Lan said.

So, he tilts his head while staring at Lan Lan lying on the tatami.

"Little Xi… maybe Lan Lan is not like most women… "

"She's a tomboy girl… she's never been polite to certain peoples… but this girl is a girl who can be a good mother… "

-Wait, a minute… why did you say it? Are those words something I should hear?

Lan's mother only saw Xi full of questioning on his head about what she said earlier.

Lan's mother waved her left arm.

"No… Don't think about it… "

Xi just nodded.

"Did you and Chu Yana to break up because of serious problems, Little Xi? "

Xi nodded slowly.

"I think so, too… We've been through a lot of time together… lots of memories… and all the things we've been through… however, I think relationsh.i.p.s might have to the end at this point… "

Lan's mother stared at Xi with a concerned view.

She never thought two lovers would break up for something. Both people love each other. Their love sometimes makes the mother of Lan jealous if they compared to her date with her husband. Most people would think alike.

" Well… maybe all, it's become fate you must separate… "

Xi smiled wryly.

-No…

- No… I don't even believe in the existence of fate… only morons and idiots have that idea…

-It's a fake… a pretense owned by Chu Yana and Yang Jie.

-Chu Yana pretended not to commit a sin and an affair…

-Yang Jie pretended to be a good friend and pretends to keep smiling sweetly to support our relationship.

-Ah….

-If I can go back to the beginning… I wish I'm not to feeling the falsehoods.

- I don't want to feel the pain of betrayal… I don't want to feel the fraud of a relationship… But the world became so cruel… why would they betray me?

-Why should I?

- Why should I… have I done a mistake?

- Did I ever betray someone in my past?

- It's not fair… This world isn't fair.

-I'll give the same pain to those two…

-Until they become insane… become insane… then, they will regret the betrayal they do… It was a real thing… the way I used to pay them…

- This is my decisions…

Lan's mother couldn't see and read it all. The human heart is complicated.

I remember an old story. About a student kissing his teacher. Then, the student sold him.

I'm thrilled about that…

I laughed when the man was betrayed… whipped… paraded around town and crucified on the hill of Golgotha…

That was my victory…

I prove to that man that human beings sell and betray their trust for some silver pieces.

Then, do a loyalty to love be able to defend?

The answer is no.

The girl has betrayed Xi.

***

Li Yuan is still not fully aware. So, Xi put Li Yuan on the passenger seat next to the driver. That little girl just fell asleep and lean on the chair.

That girl's face is sweet. How many times did Xi see her, the girl's face was like a little angel. Her face white like snow and oval shaped. Li Yuan's long hair set up with Cross twins bun style. Even only wore regular clothes like military jackets make Li Yuan looked attractive. Xi thought this little girl is a goddess who descended into the mortal world.

She's Chang'er in the real world. The beauty of a princess like a jade who was first seen by Xi.

***

When they arrived at Li Yuan's apartment. XI holds Li Yuan on his back. That girl is still half conscious. It forced Xi to hold the small body with both hands. Then he only ambled and put Li Yuan on the bed.

He pulled a blanket covering Li Yuan little body.

Xi initially wanted to leave Li Yuan's room and then sleep in the middle room. But, Li Yuan drew one of Xi's hands.

The girl looks restless and sweaty in her forehead.

"Sorry..."

"I'm feel regretted, please don't leave me… I'm so regretted… to have chosen that guy… "

"Sorry for not trusting your words… "

"Sorry for sending a murderer to you… "

" Sorry ... for underestimated your love recognition… "

"Sorry... I'm regretted to kill you… "

"I'm really Sorry… "

"I have realized that I love you after you die. After you leave me alone ..."

Li Yuan immediately fell asleep.

Li Yuan's buried anxiety too long enough.

It even became a nightmare in her sleep. It was the regret of a girl who once betrayed the person who loved her.

An excuse to make Xi shed his tears.

He doesn't know… whether it's jealousy for Yang Xi or because he's concerned about the regret of this girl.

He doesn't know at all.

Only One thing he knows… he feels sad if he hears Li Yuan's words, listens to Li Yuan's remorse, sees Li Yuan's loyalty, and witnessed a brittleness to the only person Xi believes.

Sadness and jealousy. He fuses both feelings.

Xi approaches and sees the expression of anxiety on Li Yuan's face. He erased the sweats on the girl's forehead.

"I don't know… I don't understand… I can't comfort you… I can't give you words to keep you firm. I can only say… "

Xi drew a breath.

He stopped on his words.

"Don't hurt yourself… "

"Don't hate yourself… "

"Don't curse yourself… "

"Though you regret all your actions in the past… "

"Never do all that… "

"I think there are people out there who can forgive you… "

"There are also people who feel hurt seeing the suffering of your regret… "

"The guy who will always stand beside you… "

"If you don't find that guy…"

"I don't mind being the only person… "

"Being the only person who will always forgive you… "

"Being the only person who will always feel pain seeing your regret… "

"Being the only person who will always stand beside you… "

"I don't mind doing it all… "

"Although, people will stay away from me because of that… "

"I have absolutely no objection… "

"I want to see your smile… "

"I want to see your laugh… "

"I want to see your angry… "

"I want to see your upset… "

"I want to see all your expressions… "

"I want to see your happiness… "

"When you're happy… an obscure reason makes me feel relieved… "

"So… I wish you would accept all my selfishness… "

"My selfishness to never hate you…forever... "

Xi stared at the girl's face. He got his face closer to Li Yuan's forehead. Then, Xi kissed Li Yuan forehead. A kiss is the sweetest and warm I've ever seen.

It's the same kiss from memories.

***

I never know why…

I can never guess…

A feeling of love feels bitter…

A feeling of love feels sweet, too…

Those things are confusing me right now…

That each the human has its selfishness…

That selfishness makes me judge…

That all the hate is not the same…

(Hell, Poem of the Little Girl's Regression)