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The reality is so bitter and not as easy as people imagine.

Love is not the same as people imagine.

Love contains pain and suffering when people lose it.

They will feel an emptiness in their hearts.

At that moment, I entered their hearts.

Makes them aware that it's not fair to them.

***

Xi Yang cries like that. His eyes were red, not even came out of his pointed nose. Good looks of a man like fading.

No one is strong enough to endure the suffering of the torment that the world gave him. The torture makes his heart empty so that many bad things will eat it.

Devouring him, humans named its despair. A pleasant emotion for me. The thing that keeps me laughing, laughing at their weaknesses. Those who claim to be perfect beings in this world.

"You're a liar ... why are you not honest with us, Father!"

-You are a liar, you smile when you endure pain? Are you being strong and firm when you endure the pain you have?

can yet say everything?

-Are we so valuable to You?

-So you have to pretend?

However, he fully knew it was his fault. If he doesn't nod and declares lies to his father, maybe his father will stay alive. Maybe his mind won't be disturbed. Well ... maybe dad will still be with them.

Maybe, they will keep telling stories on the balcony of the house while drinking his father's favorite sake. Maybe they will still laugh cheerfully ... Maybe ... But, all that is impossible. Everything has happened. Time and memories have passed as straw is eaten by fire, it becomes dust.

***

Xi is asleep in his small room. He was too tired to cry so sleepiness brought him out of a nightmare. Hoping that it was all just a dream, he sometimes did it when he was little. If something bad happens to him, he will sleep.

So, when he wakes it remains.

He hopes that it's just a bad dream. He wants to wake up from a long bad dream.

However, when he woke up, he did not get what he want. His father had died and his mother was still lamenting his father's dead in the bedroom.

He still remembers all the memories of his father.

Xi remembers when his father gave him his favorite food.

"Hey boy, your father is bringing you red bean cake, do you like it?"

Xi The boy just nodded. He took the cake and ate the cake like a greedy little pig. Father just staring gently and his expression looked happy.

Memories when his father taught him to ride a bicycle. When he first falls. Father s the first person to catch him so he doesn't fall and cries. When he fell he would cry loudly, w.h.i.n.e, even though it was only a small scratch. But, Father will always mumble.

"A man may not cry whiny! Men are stronger than women. If women cry and men also cry ... Then who will cheer up and wipe away the tears of women later ...? So, don't cry, Little Xi. Smile even if it's more painful than a scratch. Smile ... "

Father's words still make an impression.

-How don't I cry now, father? You have left, you will not return ... I cannot hold back my tears. I can't do it at all. Sorry, I chided daddy! Sorry!

His tears flowed again. So that his whole face is wet. The cry was a man's cry.

***

Xi Yang stared at his cell phone screen. On the screen the application is still there [Restart] he feels stupid, if only he used the application to find out the truth about Father, maybe his father would not continue to lie. However, he has used the application to avenge them.

He feels stupid. He wants to curse himself. But everything has happened.

He only blames the two traitors, he will make sure that the two people will feel the same as him. Losing all the valuable thing.

Ring ... Ring ... Ring

Xi Yang's cell phone rang, the screen showed Li Yuan's name there. Therefore, he immediately changed his mood and expression that was grieved to deceive Li Yuan.

"Hey beloved student, where have you been now?"

"Sorry sensei ... I'm now in Shincuan."

"Don't even tell your teacher for four months ...?"

Li Yuan complain.

"..."

"Did something happen to you?"

Xi Yang doesn't want to say anything. He kept quiet.

"Surely something bad happened ... don't lie ..." Li Yuan seemed to be the best lie detector machine, even if it was through a phone call she could guess.

"Tell what happened actually, Yang'er ..."

Xi Yang held his breath, but he said that.

"Dad has died ..."

Li Yuan was silent from behind the phone. She did not think Xi Yang's father had died. She once met both Xi Yang's parents when she visited Shincuan.

"I'll be there soon...."

Li Yuan said then closed her phone call.

"Sensei ..."

Before Xi Yang finished his words, Li Yuan had decided hung on the telephone call.