Marriage In Trouble

"Where the hell are you?!" I immediately put my phone away from my ear when I heard Brian shouting from the other line. I massage my forehead because my head is starting to hurt again because of his voice. "Calyx been calling me because you've been away from home for 2 weeks! What the f.u.c.k is wrong with you?! You're not a kid anymore Severa! You're married! Stop acting like a kid and go home!"

I sighed.

It's been 2 weeks since I've run away from home. It's been 2 weeks since I keep my distance away from Calyx and now, Brian knows it too. Damn it! Why does he need to care? As what he had said, I am married now. He can't just call me and act like he cares because he doesn't really care!

"Severa!!" Brian shouted again, super annoyed.

"What Uncle Brian?" I sound irritated as usual when talking to him.

Brian is my only guardian left. (Well, he is because there are 2 people in my family who chose to abandon me for whatever reason it might be.) He's the one who handles my dad's property and he's been aiming to have all of it. The thing is, he can't get what my father had invested. All of my father's property and wealth has been given to me. Every single penny. But another thing is, my father is not an easy person that you ever know.

My father was a strict person. Yes, was. Past tense. Period. I'm not gonna tell a story about him because I really just can't especially when Brian is currently bugging the hell out of me.

"Jesus, Severa! When will you ever grow up!? And where the f.u.c.k are you?!"

"I am currently in the process of growing up, Uncle Brian. And if you really think I'm going to tell you where the f.u.c.k I am, well I'm sorry because I won't ever tell you that information. So please, stop bugging me and continue whatever you are doing to get everything away from me. Because if you stop doing that whatever you are doing, you might never know that once I'm done growing up, you will lose everything you invested and that already includes all of your efforts to transfer all of my properties and wealth to your name."

I didn't let him answer and cut him on the line. My day has been ruined because of him. Argh! Why do I need to be under his radar always? Why can't he just ask me to transfer everything I have right now to him because I am willing to give it all. He's so busy making my life so miserable just to stole everything that I have. He already messed up my life by controlling it and now he dared to invade my married life just because Calyx inform him that I've been running away.

And Jesus! Why does Calyx need to tell Brian about me? About what I did! He knows I hate that man! He knows that man is the one who made this f.u.c.k.i.n.g married happened. It's not that I don't like getting married to him but I am not the kind of person who freaking force someone to be with me just because I want it. Yes, I like Calyx. I love him. I am obsessed with him but I am one of those obsessed people in the world who still knows about the word limitation and respect. I am just being obsessed with him because he's the only guy that I really like and he makes me happy even though I annoyed him a lot.

I decided to prepare myself to go home. For 2 weeks, I've been staying in a budget hotel near in our university. Even though I run away from home, I never neglect my studies at all. One of the reasons that Brian has a control of me because I can't handle my dad's property and wealth if I didn't finish my studies and if I didn't turn 25. Since I stop going to school for 2 years, I need to go back again being a first-year college student. I only need to wait for 4 years before I can say that I'm totally free.

BEFORE I head straight home, I went to Kaiser's place. He was surprised when he saw me with my stuff.

"Where the hell have you been?!" Kaiser's asked while he's helping me with my stuff. I brought 24'' luggage and 2 carry on items. I really look like someone who travels across the globe not someone who just decided to stay away from home for a while. "Calyx has been bothered because you flee away from home! What the hell were you thinking?!"

My heart skips a beat because of what I've heard but I never showed to Kaiser that it also bothers me when Calyx is bothered about me. This is new. Don't tell me this is one of the cliche parts of the story where he will fall in love with me in the end. Psh.

"Hey!" I turned to Kaiser who looks annoyed. "I've been talking to you and you're not even listening!"

I smirked at him. "You've been talking a lot now, Kaiser eh."

"Tss. I've been talking to you because I really need to talk to you." He heaved a deep sighed. Then he's annoyed face becomes serious. Back being the real Kaiser, the mysterious Kaiser. "What the hell is happening, Nine?"

"Can't you just be considerate, Kaiser? And offer me some water. I am freaking thirsty." I sat comfortably on his sofa and cross my legs. I tried to avoid his gaze because he is really freaking serious. I don't like answering his question. I don't like him being interrogative. He's the only person that can intimidate all of us. Just by his looks and dark orbs, you can't stop yourself by giving him what he needed from you.

But since I know him since I was young, I know how to stop myself getting intimidated by him.

I look straight to his eyes and smirk. "Why can't you just figure it out? Or maybe, asked your cousin?" I challenged him. I know he can do more than asking me. He can know everything if he really wants to. He has the skill to know everything. Why can't he just use it to know everything that is happening to me? "I thought you guys came here because you already figured out what is happening in my life?" Now it's my turn to get serious. He shakes his head as an answer to my question. My forehead creased. "Then why did you guys came here? I understand Lucien can visit here anytime he wants because his family is here but having you and the other guys here...." I stop and look seriously at Kaiser.

I don't want to answer my own question because it's scary. Geez. Why didn't I even think about one big possibility why they are here? Argh.

Now, this is serious. It's like my so complicated life become more complicated in a way that I wish that I have a normal life. Normal in a way I don't need to be worried about all of my actions just because someone out there will always follow my tracks and will always observe every move I make.

"Now tell me, Nine. What the hell is going on with your life?" I faced Kaiser. I sighed and give up.

"I have to get married. And Calyx accepted it." I know my answer is not enough and it's too vague. Normally, there should be a follow-up question of too many why's but Kaiser just stared at me. He stared at me like he's processing all the probability why I end up marrying his cousin.

Because Kaiser knows who I am. The real me. And I guess he's thinking if his cousin knows about me more than he does.

"You have to fix your life, Nine. Do it before it's too late."

I g.r.o.a.n.e.d. "Stop calling me, Nine. Will you?" he smirked and he offered his hand. I accepted it and we both stood up. "Let's get you home."

THE house is empty when Kaiser and I arrived. No lights were turned on. The whole place is too quiet that makes me nervous.

Kaiser was about to act like he is a City Hunter but I stopped him. I shake my head to inform him that he doesn't need to overreact about the situation. Because only Calyx and I are living in this big house.

But Calyx's car was at the garage. He's home for sure but why the house looks haunted? If he's home, he should turn on the lights near the receiving area. The garage should be closed not open. The main door should be locked not freely open.

And of course, the smell of this house is not a product of Sweet Honesty that irritates my nose.

"Someone broke into your house, Nine." Kaiser whispered but it's a kind of a lie. I know he knows what I'm thinking right now. We are both familiar with the scent that lingers to our nose. We are both familiar with this kind of cliche scenario.

Kaiser doesn't want me to go upstairs when I tried to make a step forward. He shakes his head as disapproval. Not wanting me to let go. Not wanting me to feel the pain when I reach the biggest room upstairs.

But my decision is firm. I want to confirm what my instinct is telling me. I don't care if I get hurt. I am hurting anyway. What's the difference anyway?

I removed Kaiser's hand in my arm. He heaved a deep sigh and he turns his back. He went to the sofa and sat comfortably there. It's my turn now to heaved a deep sigh.

I started to take a step forward upstairs. My heart beats like a drum. The sound of my heart is like the sound of a gong. Loud and fast. It's like I am heading myself to a horror house. It scares the hell out of me. Afraid that there might be a ghost that will appear out of nowhere.

Our house is really big. Too big for Calyx and I. The master's bedroom was in the right far side. But I was only there once and I never tried going into that room again. My room was in the middle. It's the closest room in the stairway. It's also a big room but my room now is nothing compared to my old room in my own home.....

I stop in my tracks when I heard something. It came from Calyx room, the master's bedroom. My heart beats rapidly. Frantically. I am starting to get sweaty. Cold sweat. My body trembles because of too much nervousness. I never felt so scared in my whole entire life. And this is the first time.

I am scared. Totally scared of what I am going to find out. But I am too eager to know what is happening in the home now, my new home.

I started walking to the direction that I never tried to take again for the past 3 months. The sounds of my heart beating loudly is the only I hear while I am taking small steps toward the room in the right far side.

"Ughhhhh." I stop again in my tracks when I hear a m.o.a.n.

My tears automatically fall in my face. I can feel the invisible knife slowly tearing my heart into pieces.

But instead of going back from where I was, I continue walking towards Calyx room.

Slowly. Silently. Every step is agonizing for me. I know what the f.u.c.k is going on! I am not dumb enough to ignore all the unusual thing I have seen right now in my own home. I am not stupid enough to believe Kaiser, that someone broke into my house. On the other hand, I know someone really broke into my house, into my life.

When I am already in front of the master's bedroom, I can clearly hear every m.o.a.n from the 2 familiar voices. I can clearly hear how they both destroy the sacracy of marriage. It's disgusting. It's killing me.

I cover my mouth to stop myself from making a noise. I know I vow myself to set him if he asks me to but I don't know if I could let him go just easily. I am now his wife. Legally. In the name of God. In front of his family. I don't think I could easily set him free. Because I have every rights to fight what is mine. I have the right to act as his wife. But what rights do I have right now?

I bit my lip to suppress the pain I am feeling right now. My marriage with him is already in trouble. I am aware of that. But I won't let this marriage of mine gets in deep trouble just because I let the ghost from his past butts in our life.

I only have Calyx in my life. He' the only treasure that I own and I won't back down just because of a petty pirate trying to steal what's mine. I will fight for what's mine.

But if my own game is already a dead end, that's the time I will set him free.

For now, I will show them I can do as Severa Trexler-Lockhorst. I will slowly show them how a powerless girl like me can play the real game.

I fixed myself, dry the tears in my face and I took a deep breath.

When I heard that they already reach the climax, I kick the door that made Calyx and Jillian stop from what they are doing.

Jillian was under Calyx and they are both n.a.k.e.d. Totally freaking n.a.k.e.d.

I smirk at how they immediately cover themselves. Calyx rushed to put some clothes and face me.

"Severa." he whisper my name. He's still catching his breath. Tired from f.u.c.k.i.n.g his mistress in our own bed.

His glorious body doesn't even bother me even though I crave to touch it before. I started to hate every part of his body that Jillian touched. I really want to be under quarantine to remove all the traces of his ugly ex.

"Who the f.u.c.k is she?" Jillian sounds so annoyed or irritated. I don't really know. She sounds like a witch to me. So I raised my eyebrow to her and face Calyx.

"Why don't you introduce your mistress to me, my dear husband?" i asked sarcastically.

Calyx face turn pale. I know he's torn. Torn between his lover and legal wife. But he doesn't need to be torn because he was educated enough to know what's the definition of marriage and mistress. He knows that too well. But I am giving him a cold stare that he is not used to see it in me and that what makes him torn. Torn between acting what's right or wrong. I don't give a f.u.c.k tho. Because I am going to fight what's mine in my own freaking way. And both of them should prepare for it.

"You? Wife? Are you serious girl? Calyx, what is she saying?" Calyx didn't respond right away that made Jillian got angry. "Don't tell me that Kaiser was telling the truth?" she added. Questioning Calyx again.

I didn't let Calyx say anything and I am the one who answered her.

"Kaiser Sven Lockhorst is telling you the truth. Calyx is already married. TO ME. I am Severa Trexler-Lockhorst. Nice too meet you Jillian Smith." her mouth gaped open.

I turn to Calyx and lazily look at him. He is also looking at me with confusion. Maybe wondering why I know his cousin's full name.

"Get her out of our house Calyx. Don't make me wanna drag her out of this house." I said without so much emotion then turn away.

When I got out from the room, the pain that I am supressing got escape from my c.h.e.s.t. I cupped my c.h.e.s.t that has been hurting so bad. I bit my lip to stop again myself to let out a cry. This is freaking painful. Witnessing the love of your life being unfaithful to you. But the worst pain is, is when I let them hurt me. I let them stab my heart a million times. I let them make me feel I am not worth it. And I let myself act like a worthless woman and wife to Calyx. I let Calyx hurt me and I let myself hurt me big time.

I am so f.u.c.k.i.n.g stupid. This is not what I've been trained to. This is me a Severa but the old me was lost and can't be found. How can I find myself if I'm so lost in Calyx's world?