You Plus Me Equals

He looked up at his friends face. Evan nodded softly, slowly, large nods. Leo watched him waiting to see what he had to say. After all, Evan had been through this all before, and at a younger time, one of the most confusing times in his life too.

Leo remembered it. And remembered he hadn't known how to help Evan then, but now... well, now Evan would be able to help him understand what was going on now.

"Experimentation is normal when you are first figuring out your s.e.x.u.a.lity."

Evan grimaced. "I know it hurts, but it's better he figure it out first, then figure out later. It can really hurt a lot after feelings have already fully bloomed and are in a more emotionally complicated stage than young fresh love." Evan noted. Nodding gently to himself while puzzling out his explanation.

"That is much worse."

"Trust me... Much... much worse." Evan grimaced in pain, his eyes lost in his own memories for a moment.

Leo stared, almost enthralled,

'Evan had kept to himself so much at first, back then when they had first met. He didn't' know, why he just remembered that slowly Evan had opened up to him more.'

'He felt bad, he had never noticed it was a pain and not shyness.'

'He had always assumed Evan was much like him, too shy to talk much to people.'

'That Evan had felt some very horrible pain, all alone, with no one to be there for him. Had never even crossed his mind.'

'Leo wished he could go back and meet Evan sooner and stop it from ever happening.' He sighed and turned his face up at Evan.

'I'm sorry I have been such a bad friend Evan.' He opened his mouth to say the words he was thinking aloud.

Evan sighed and pinched his cheek, smiling. The pain erased from his eyes and face. He looked down at Leo gently.

"Having uncertain feelings hurts everyone," Evan said gently. Leo shut his mouth and nodded softly instead.

"It's better if you forgive him this small thing. Yes, it hurts, but trust me, I have done a lot worse."

"And do you think I am a bad person?" Evan continued to pet Leo's hair soothingly. Cuddling him into his l.a.p.

"No, you are not a bad person," Leo responded warmly.

"Right, I have made mistakes. But you still trust me?"

Leo nodded. Evan squeezed Leo's shoulder gently, something small, a tiny reassurance, and then ruffled Leo's hair.

Evan was right. Leo thought. 'He needed to forgive him. Just because Max had said he wasn't sure if Leo was some sort of walking pheromone emitter turning him on everywhere he went. It had to have been hard to admit that he was just trying to make sure he wasn't becoming super turned on by everything, and everyone around him.... Well, that didn't mean that Leo couldn't trust him. Still... No, he should try and fix it.'

"I feel horrible and I know he is feeling it too. But I don't have any idea how to fix it." Leo said in an almost whisper.

"I dunno if it can be fixed." He said softly, then sniffled loudly through his stuffed nose. He lifted his head to try and sit up but gave up and laid back into Evan's l.a.p unhappily.

"Anything can be fixed. It just might not be the exact same as before. But I am sure everything will be okay" Evan said and ruffled Leo's hair once more, before petting it like before.

"Want to watch some TV?" He asked, changing the subject. As a way to show he had said all he had to say on the matter, and that they should move on and enjoy the rest of their night.

Leo nodded and handed the remotes to Evan.

'He would apologize later. Emotions are a hard thing to manage, and when they were highest was not always the best time to re-approach the subject."