Without Me

I have read your comments and I think that You deserve an explanation.

Well, you are surprised that Yao Xi does not defend herself when Li Ye Han forces himself to her. You wonder why she will not just hit him and run away.

I answer you.

I spent my whole life in an orphanage. I know what it's like to feel unloved, unnecessary and lonely. It seems to you then that for the whole world, to people around it doesn't matter whether you live or die.

Now think, how would you feel in such a situation?

Awful, right?

And now imagine that someone is appearing in your life, indifferently: a friend, a colleague, a lady on the street or a teacher at school. This person doesn't make you feel unnecessary anymore. Someone who makes you welcome another day with a smile :)

Amazing feeling, I know what I say :)

I know a lot of people. I know a girl who was r.a.p.ed by her father every night, but she forgave him. Why? Because he was her father, because she loved him anyway.

My mother forgave my father every time that he torture her after drunk. Why? Because she loved him.

I myself forgave my father that he also beat me when he was drunk. Why, will you think? It's easy. Because I loved him. He was terrible, he beat me, he insulted me, but when he died, I could not hate him. I still love him and I miss him because when he was sober, I knew that he loved me too. It is a pity that he was rarely sober ...

That's how we, people are. Love stupefies us. And although someone close to us has hurt us, we can forgive. We never forget but we forgive. Because we love. It distinguishes us from animals.

Why did not Yao Xi push back Lao Xi?

Because she loved him.

Because she still believed that, if he does that to her, he must feel something for her. Stupid, I know. But don't we all see what we want to see?

Yao Xi lacked love. She desperately wanted to believe she would get that from LYH.

If it were not for traumatic experiences, how would she get stronger? How could she be strong to face life?

Severe experiences shape our character.

I had to put Yao Xi in such a situation to strengthen her.

And what would happen if everything went easy for Yao Xi?

Think, if LYH would give her peace, if she ran away and if he did nothing to her. Where would she get the strength and perseverance to fight? If I didn't put her in front of a traumatic experience, it would be boring. For a few chapters, she would have forgotten that he wanted to do something to her and forgive him.

So I'm sorry if I disappointed you, but it was necessary for the novel to develop more interestingly.

Stay with Lao Xi to see her fight, become a strong, independent woman who can reach the stars and pay back to everyone who hurts her.

I am very happy for every comment! I am very grateful for your support from you!

I love you! : *