Trapped In Her Heart

When Sebastian did not say anything, Ellie slapped her forehead and sighed, "I said too much again. I am really sorry, I didn't mean to but—Ahh you know that I have a very big mouth. You know—"

"Changes scare me." Pausing for a while, Sebastian added, "It feels weird when I try to change."

"Why? Why would it feel weird?" 

Shrugging his shoulder, he added, "I don't know sometimes I feel like maybe I am so used to living the same way that my body doesn't want to welcome any new changes. It doesn't feel right." 

"Hmm, have you tried implementing them? I mean have you ever tried making changes in your day to day life?" When Sebastian shook his head, she added, "So how can you say that it never works?" 

"It's not just about me, I also don't wanna freak out everyone who is around me. You saw how shocked and baffled they were when I arrived at the dinner party yesterday. I just don't want to ruin their mood you know so I seldom show up." 

"What? Why would you even think like that?" Pausing when for a while, Ellie added, "Your friends love you boss and if you really did ruin their mood, why would they even invite? Wouldn't they just party around secretly without letting you know? Have they ever not invited you when they organised something?"

"They always invite me."

"There you see? Your friends love and care about you. You shouldn't distant yourself from people who care for you. That will make you feel alone and lose faith in you." 

Sebastian sighed and said, "I guess I am just too conscious of what people will think if I start changing. I mean you know, I hate it when people go all 'Ahh where is the old Sebastian? What did you do to him? Where is he lost?' It's kinda frustrating." 

"But why do you care? Like seriously, why do you even care what others will think? It's your life and you can live it the way you want to without paying any heed to what others say." After taking a deep breath, Ellie continued, "Okay let me put it this way, people call me clumsy, lazy, disorganized, monster eater and...Ahh this list will never end but do I care?" 

Sebastian chuckled and shook his head , "No you don't."

"Exactly and why should I? Is it necessary to care? Is there a rule that I have to care? No right? So I do what I want to and what I feel like without giving a shit to those judgemental eyes and trust me boss, life is so beautiful and blessed when you just stop caring and live like a free bird." 

Looking at her bright and happy face, his heart warmed up. Only if he had such an amazing personality like hers. "Not everyone is like you Ms Miller."

Pursing her lips, Ellie nodded her head, "Hmmm, that is true. I am talented and not everyone has the same talent like I do."

"How do you always stay so positive? How can you take things so optimistically? Aren't you afraid of anything?" Sebastian asked. The more he talked to her, his curiosity to know everything about her kept spiking higher and higher. He had never shared his inner feelings with anyone but he wanted to tell her everything and he wanted to know everything about her too. It felt very strange yet peaceful at the same time and surprisingly, he was liking it.

"It's not like I am not scared of anything, there are many things I fear. Like, what if you fire you? What if I lose everything that I have now? What will happen if one day I end up losing my carefree and jolly nature? But what is the point fearing what will happen in the future when you still have a present to enjoy to the fullest." 

Without waiting for his reply, Ellie added, "You know master Oogway once said that yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift and that is why it is called present." 

Pausing for a while, she added, "So enjoy the gift without caring about anything."

"Hmmm, so is master Oogway a philosophy teacher?" He asked.

Bursting into a laughter, she shouted, "What? No, I am talking about master Oogway from Kung Fu Panda." 

"A cartoon character?" 

"What are you talking about, boss? Master Oogway is a legend." Widening her eyes in shock, she gasped, "Oh my God, don't tell me you have never watched Kung Fu Panda." 

When Sebastian shook his head, Ellie frowned, "This is so weird, ahh I cannot believe this."

Awkwardly clearing his throat, he explained, "I never really got an opportunity to watch it and I wasn't allowed to watch cartoons when I was young." 

"Then what did you grow up watching? BBC?" Ellie asked sarcastically but when Sebastian nodded his eyes, she widened her eyes in shock. "Really?"

"Hmm, I used to watch BBC with dad or business news." 

"But you were small so did you even understand anything?" She asked, wondering why would any parent make his little kid watch BBC or business news and not cartoons.

"My dad would explain everything and I used to listen." Pausing for a while, he added, "It was fun too."

"You call that fun? Ahh wait a sec." Ellie said before rushing into her room.

After a couple of minutes, she came out of the room along with her laptop. Keeping it on the table, she added, "My mom always says that it's never too late for anything. One must just have the willingness to do it so here you go—" passing him an earpiece of the earphones, she continued, "We are going to watch the entire series of Kung Fu Panda today."

"But we were supposed to clean your—"

"Ah never mind boss, I'll do it later. I guess this is more important. You have no idea what you have been missing and trust me, you are gonna love this." 

"But—"

Shoving the earpiece into his ear, Ellie started the playing the first part of the Kung Fu Panda movie series.

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