This dream was from the previous life when he and Jiang Xiao lived together for their first year in that small rental house.

During the early New Year’s celebration, Jiang Xiao spent some money to buy two expensive cakes before returning home, and later, there was no ambiguity.

He was not good at cooking at that time, so he specially packed good food from outside before returning home. The two of them had no family. In Jiang Xiao’s imagery, they finally got together and the two of them should be happy on this festive day, even if it’s one-sided.

So Jiang Xiao bought Spring Festival couplets stickers and Chinese knots1. He cleaned up the small house and looked a bit cheerful.

Unexpectedly, when the Spring Festival Gala was about to start at seven o’clock, the electricity was cut off.

It seemed that there was a problem with the circuit as it was waning. Jiang Xiao, who was going to celebrate Lunar New Year, called the landlord. The other person was a little impatient and reluctantly called the electrician. However, everyone was celebrating the Lunar New Year, who would come out to do repairs at that time?

Moreover, most of the residents in this rental house have returned to their hometowns for the New Year, only Jiang Xiao was still there. The landlord also didn’t care about him, just letting him light candles to endure for the night and would come to fix it tomorrow.

After all, it’s not his own home. The landlord had several buildings and didn’t care about him, this small tenant. Jiang Xiao also didn’t try to argue with others. After getting off the phone, he had nothing to say.

He couldn’t do anything about it.

So on New Year’s Eve, the two of them lit two candles and ate dinner. Liujiang County was bustling with activity outside, but their house was extremely dark. The old windows weren’t closed tightly, so the air leaked. The festive Lunar New Year seemed so dull.

Without electricity, it was almost impossible to do anything and it was cold inside their small house. Jiang Xiao pulled and talked to him a lot. Lin Chengyu was in a bad mood because of this, so he hardly responded. Jiang Xiao talked for a long time by himself, then leaned against the wall as he fell asleep in a daze, and he was still chanting those few words over and over again.

“I will work hard to make money in the future.”

“I will earn money to buy a big warm house for us to live in, so we don’t have to suffer from this kind of anger anymore.”

“You have to believe me…”

Lin Chengyu wanted to reach out to hug him, but he was just a bystander. He couldn’t stretch out his hand no matter what. After a while, Jiang Xiao in front of him disappeared like smoke.

Lin Chengyu’s vision flickered, but the scene in his dream changed places.

The scene flashed to fifteen years later.

Jiang Xiao really did it, he bought a small villa. However, at that time, Lin Chengyu hadn’t seen it clearly and didn’t think about how precious everything he got was.

Then he got his comeuppance.

That was the first new year after Jiang Xiao’s death.

Not long after he found Jiang Xiao’s grave, the place where he found Xingfushu Hospital, the cemetery’s location had good Fengshui. It has beautiful mountains and clear waters. There were a few clusters of small yellow flowers planted in front of the grave, which would wither in winter. Didn’t know if they would bloom again next spring.

He only remembered these and also saw the words on the tombstone with the photo of Jiang Xiao on it. But at this time, his mind felt like exploded, and after waking up, he couldn’t remember what it looked like.

He vaguely remembered that Jiang Xiao in the photo was smiling, it was him when he was young.

At that time, Lin Chengyu was most afraid of Jiang Xiao’s smile. The last time they met, Jiang Xiao was smiling. He felt a little strange at that time, but he left as usual. He didn’t expect that it was the last time the two of them saw each other.

He felt it was cruel when he saw that smile.

Jiang Xiao’s heart was really cruel.

After Lin Chengyu returned and knew about Jiang Xiao’s death, he didn’t believe it. He went to Liujiang City People’s Hospital to check the medical records. After reading them, he still didn’t believe it. He had to find someone.

Want to see the person if alive, want to see the body if dead.

Afterward, he never took care of anything in the company. The friends around him said that he was a little crazy. They were afraid of provoking him but didn’t dare to go against him, so they helped him to find Jiang Xiao. He felt that he couldn’t accept it for a while. Perhaps it would be better after clarifying the fact that the other party was already passed away.

However, after finding Jiang Xiao’s grave, Lin Chengyu couldn’t bear it and fainted on the spot.

After being sent to the hospital and waking up, he seemed to be even more abnormal. It was winter when Lin Chengyu was running around outside. Accompanied by the cold wind and rain, his fever reached 39°C and his mind was not sober.

On New Year’s Eve, he escaped the eyes of the nurses, ran out of the hospital by himself, and returned home.

The first thing he did was turn on all the lights in the villa.

Jiang Xiao liked warm yellow lamps and also sparkling crystal chandeliers. When turned on, the lights refracted, it didn’t only have a kind of exquisite allure, but also made the room extremely bright. Even if there was no one there, it looked warm.

After the lights were turned on, the room was brightly lit and it felt like Jiang Xiao was back.

He sat huddled on the sofa for a while, feeling top-heavy, and there seemed to be a ghost in front of his eyes. He seemed to see Jiang Xiao also wrapped in a small blanket, huddled in a corner of the sofa, blinked and looked at him.

“… Xiao Xiao?”

Lin Chengyu wanted to reach out to hug him, but Jiang Xiao on the sofa shrank back, not wanting him to hug him.

“It’s New Year’s Eve, Chengyu, I like New Year’s Eve,” he saw Jiang Xiao smiling at him, it was the young Jiang Xiao in the tombstone’s picture, he had a set of very adorable canine teeth, “Now I’m hungry, I want to eat.”

When he said he was hungry, Lin Chengyu panicked.

“I’ll get it for you right away, Xiao Xiao, wait for me,” he walked towards the kitchen, “Xiao Xiao is in no hurry.”

He hadn’t come back for a long time, so the refrigerator had long been empty. There was no new stuff in it.

He opened all the cabinets in the kitchen. There were plenty of rice, noodles, and various seasonings, but he didn’t know how to make them. Because of the fever, his hands and feet were still lacking in strength. He washed the rice several times and poured it into the rice cooker. He couldn’t hold the bag firmly, so it fell all over the floor.

There were also packs of whole grains such as millet, barley, black beans, and the kinds in the cabinet. When Jiang Xiao was here, he could make soy milk, multigrain porridge, and steamed multigrain cakes. Oh no.

On the other half of the cabinet, he found other things. There was a bag of imported cocoa powder and condensed milk, which were placed on the same shelf and there was even a formula posted on the shelf. When he opened the bag and smelled it, he felt a little familiar, it seemed to be the beverage Jiang Xiao often drank.

Hot cocoa was easy to make and Lin Chengyu’s mind seemed to be a little clearer. He turned on the small stove, carefully made a cup according to the recipe, then poured the hot drink from the small pot into the cup. He held it carefully like he held a baby. Then, he went to the living room to find Jiang Xiao.

“Xiao Xiao, would you like some drinks first? I’ll make the food right away so there will be something to eat soon.”

But there was no Jiang Xiao in the living room.

He panicked and couldn’t find him. He thought that Jiang Xiao might be sleepy, as he got sleepy very easily, so he went to the room to look for Jiang Xiao with that cup of hot cocoa.

There was no one in the room, in the study, or the bathroom.

He was the only one left in the huge house.

He stumbled all the way upstairs and found the terrace on the third floor. There was no one there, but the wind was very strong.

Lin Chengyu carefully guarded the cup of hot drink in his hand. On the third floor of the villa, he could see the tallest building in Liujiang River. The electronic screens around the building began to light up, counting down the numbers. That was the sign of New Year’s Eve.

The Lunar New Year was here.

Lin Chengyu seemed to wake up at that moment.

There was no Jiang Xiao for a long time, his Xiao Xiao passed away from illness for several months already.

He suddenly remembered the tomb he saw not long ago. The cup of hot cocoa in his hand couldn’t be held steadily, it fell to the ground as the porcelain was broken into several pieces, blasting all over the place.

The wind on the terrace was too strong, his whole body was cold, and his blood was also cold. The cup of hot cocoa was the only thing he could make. Despite it was already spilled, he was reluctant to pick it up.

After picking up the broken pieces, his hands were bleeding from several cuts.

At this time, it was good to still be able to feel pain.

After Jiang Xiao’s death, he often felt at a loss. He couldn’t cry, just felt lost.

Everything in front of him seemed to be fake. He had hoped it was fake, like a nightmare. He always felt that when he woke up and opened his eyes, Jiang Xiao would still be by his side. This was like a self-protection mechanism so that he wouldn’t be in such pain. He couldn’t breathe in this situation, as if a pair of invisible hands were strangling his heart.

If he hadn’t found Jiang Xiao’s grave, he might have been able to deceive himself like this for the rest of his life. Lin Chengyu knew this in his heart, but he was still looking for another reality. However, Jiang Xiao had left, so he couldn’t lie to himself anymore.

On New Year’s Eve that day, he was alone on the terrace of the villa, finally crying heartbreakingly.

In the first year when he first met Jiang Xiao, he went through bankruptcy and the loss of his closest relative. He fell all the way from heaven’s favorite to the bottom. On New Year’s Eve, the small rental house had a power outage. It was cold and dark. Everything just got worse and worse.

Only now did he realize that eating cakes in the dark was not bitter at all.

At that time, Jiang Xiao was there, the two of them still had each other, and there were still thousands of possibilities and hopes. What was the temporary financial hardship? To meet a person who could support and love each other for the rest of his life was already an incomparable treasure.

He lived like this for fifteen years. Lin Feng had harmed him before, and after he was capable enough, he also had returned it to him equally. After that, he should have turned around and taken care of Jiang Xiao. When he already missed it, he had truly missed it. Now he really had nothing.

This was torment. When that person left, he was in a boundless sea of suffering. After all, when a person died, he couldn’t be resurrected, thus he had no hope.

Lin Chengyu woke up from his nightmare.

In the winter, he broke out in a cold sweat. After waking up, he was panting heavily. For a long time, he couldn’t tell whether what was in front of him was reality or a dream. But even if he was clear about it, his emotions still couldn’t go away for a while. He felt stuffy in his heart and he couldn’t cry even if he wanted to cry.

It would be great if Jiang Xiao was by his side.

However he wasn’t there, he was far away in Houlin, and he would not be by his side at this time.

He didn’t know what to do, or how much effort he had to put in before Jiang Xiao was willing to come back.

The next morning, Lin family’s people who stayed in Houlin were reporting about Jiang Xiao to him as usual.

“…he played with fireworks downstairs for a long time.”

“He looked very happy.”

He finally felt relieved.

Lin Chengyu didn’t sleep well on New Year’s Eve, but Jiang Xiao was the opposite. He was tired enough and managed to earn enough money last year. This year he felt that he had lived comfortably, so he slept soundly. When he woke up, it was around nine o’clock on the first day of the Lunar New Year. It was the first time since his rebirth that he slept so late.

After waking up, he felt that there was something odd under the pillow, so he reached out to take it out. It was a red envelope from Xia Wanwan. There were a few words written on it — ‘good health and luck in everything, every year’.

There were five hundred yuan inside, so Jiang Xiao happily put the red envelope away. He got up, washed his face, brushed his teeth, and looked outside.

There was a layer of red shavings of firecrackers in the snow downstairs. It was booming. Xia Wanwan prepared steamed buns for breakfast. There were from the leftovers last night. It was delicious to eat them while hot.

According to Houlin’s practice, one should go to the paternal family on the first day of the Lunar New Year and return to the maternal family on the second day, and then begin to visit various other relatives. The first and second days of the new year were relatively busy, so there were still no people in the street. After that, on the third day, many people came out to play with their relatives. At that time, it was more appropriate to go out and set up a stall.

Today he was making up for his winter vacation homework during the day and Xia Wanwan was watching the rerun of the Spring Festival Gala in the living room. Her laughter could be heard from time to time.

On the second day of the new year, Jiang Xiao had finished all his winter homework. So in the early morning of the third day, he brought his goods back to the market to set up a stall and earn money.

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1 中国结 or ‘Chinese knots’, something that looks like this:

T/N: More knives ahahahaha 

Huhu so tired QwQ it’s my own fault though, cuz I’m a procrastinator, I should’ve been ‘saving’ chapters, that way even if there’s an emergency I can just schedule everything. But I do feel that the chapters got harder and harder to translate as we go orz

Important notice for future updates

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I initially wanted to grow this website, however joining a community will open up new chances for me, as I also have been offered to be a co-translator for an arc in an ongoing project (but I still haven’t finished the test tho ;w;).

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