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The two of them finally will return to Zhengzhou. Li Yuan left with Xi Yang. Ms. Xi drove them to the train station was so far from the village they lived in.

"Little Xi, don't forget to take care of your health there. I will visit you occasionally if i can..."

His mother only gave advice before departure to her beloved son.

"I should be the one who said it was to mother. Take good care of your mother's health."

XI Yang kissed his mother then turned to Li Yuan who was standing beside him with a smile.

"Auntie ... no need to worry about Yang'er. I will make sure my stupid student is to take good care of himself."

Li Yuan smiled at Mrs. XI Yang.

"Sorry to trouble you, Little Li ..."

Li Yuan just shook her head softly.

"No. I am not bothered about it."

Xi Yang only sighed in relief that Li Yuan had a little understanding that his mother was not worried about him.

"Then Mother, we depart."

"Be careful..."

Li Yuan and Xi Yang boarded the train to Zhengzhou.

***

In the train.

"Yang'er ... You previously said something betrayed you ... Can you tell your teacher about it . What really happened?"

Li Yuan looked intently at XI Yang.

Xi Yang is just silent. He looked towards the outside the window where he saw an exquisite view. The atmosphere of Shincuan is surrounded by lots of trees and mountains.

"Actually, I want to keep this a secret from you, Sensei ..." He mumbled. He seemed to want Li Yuan not to know all kinds of treachery and infidelity he experienced.

Li Yuan shook her head slowly. She wanted to know, so she didn't want Xi Yang to make things that stuck in his mind become a secret to her.

"I want to hear it. Even if you keep it a secret.."

Xi Yang sighs before telling everything.

"Chu Yana has betrayed me ..." He whispered but his expression seemed to harbor a lot of anger.

Li Yuan gasped.

"She's having an affair with Yang Jie ... it's so hurt." Xi Yang bit his lips, there was blood dripping.

It spreads anger over everything he perceives.

Li Yuan just bowed. She doesn't know what to say. She is only an observer of the relationship between the two people.

"Hilarious isn't it, Sensei?"

Xi Yang mocks himself.

He is too naïve and stupid all this time.

Friendship? Loyalty? Love? It's all just falsehood that can't guarantee anyone to be loyal.

That's the real human relationship.

There is no loyalty in mere words.

It's all delusions to prove that people have to pay dearly for that delusion.

"I believe in her love as pure ... I didn't consider it wrong at all ... But She slept with Yang Jie like a bitch? The innocence of her words,but, I only saw them as only two animals."

"I didn't think at all, the person I thought of as a best friend had been playing crazy(have s.e.x) and screwing my girlfriend all this time ... I would be crazy if I still smiled at them. Even though it's all just pretense."

Li Yuan looked at empathy and compassion for Xi Yang. She had done the same thing, chanting the person who loved her until the betrayal she did had to be paid for by the death of that person.

She wants to curse, but she is not worthy to do that.

In the past she was also a traitor.

A traitor who laughs at the traitor?

That is a funny thing.

"Then sensei ... I already said the truth ... Do you want to laugh at me?"

Xi Yang stared at Li Yuan.

She sees and feel his expression was empty; It was a void in humans.

"I will not laugh at you ... I will not blame you ... I'm just a little ashamed of myself ... I've also done the same thing to people who love me ... So I'm not worthy to be angry, sympathetic or anything else. "

"I only want to tell you that's the real human being ... There is no perfection in its possession, whether it's love or friendship. They are false, all that can be thrown away ..."

"Then what will you do, Yang'er?"

The atmosphere on the train is as silent.

It's as if words will make things change like night silence.

"I ... I am still a human ... Every human being will not forget that, all their betrayal. I will repay what they give me."

Li Yuan just looked pity. She was regret they had betrayed the man, and he pities that revenge had eaten him.

"You have been eaten by revenge ... You better think about it ."

"Ha haha ... I don't mind being eaten by revenge, it's more valuable than all the falsehoods that exist now."

He smiled, a smile like a complete surrender to what he had done.

A grudge.

***

I smile

I'm laughing

I am so happy

That hatred I brought to them

Is the most beautiful thing

It's so beautiful when they cry, scream and regret.

I sympathize with them

But I don't cry over it

Because I live from hatred.