Marriage In Trouble

In the end, the Gala was a mess. Everyone around the country talks about what happened last night and a lot of twisted stories are coming out because of what Jillian said.

Now, I am being called as an unwanted wife and people on social media either hate me or pity me because of that pathetic news. And I'm not even sure if the news helps our company or not. But one thing is for sure, fixing my marriage will not be as easy as hell.

"What's your plan?" Kaiser asked. I noticed that he's talking to me more than the usual and I appreciate it so much.

The other guys didn't say anything about what happened. Especially when they found out I did to Dos. And maybe Dos asked them to stay away from my own business. Even Lucien just disappeared last night without asking me if I'm okay or not or even bid his goodbye. What a d.i.c.k!

The girls went back to the Philippines because my brothers tell them to do so.

And yes, they already know that I am the Steven and Sebastian little sister. They were shocked but they were unable to say anything. No one dared to question Steven and Sebastian tho.

"Tell me, Kaiser. What's the difference being me as Severa and being as Nine?" I seriously asked because I've been thinking about all night on how to become Nine again. I know that I can be Nine easily again, the one Dos is talking about but I don't know how anymore.

"Well, that's easy and it's a good idea you asked me about that because I really wanna punch you for being stupid being Severa."

"Whoah! Chill out, Diez! You speak more than 10 words already!" I tried to kid him but he just glared at me so I surrender and I let him answer my question.

"First thing first, I didn't know that your Severa personality is so damn far being Nine that I knew." he started. He sounds like he can't believe what he is just saying but his face is so damn serious. "Severa is weak, stupid and a hopeless case. While Nine is Nine. She's serious and she knows how to fix things. Nine is the deadliest person I know. But Severa, a bullet of words from Jillian can immediately kill her."

He sat down beside me and pulled out a small knife on the edge of his shoe. I didn't stop him when he made a cut on my arms. My blood flowed from the wounds left by Kaiser. But I didn't feel any pain. What I feel are the memories came back like a flashback, those memories that I made with them.

"The sight of blood doesn't mean we're in pain." I whispered.

"But the sight of their blood on our hands means we're done with the pain." Kaiser continued as he cut himself.

"Do you really need to do this? We're making a mess!" I said as I clean my wound. Trying to stop the blood from flowing.

"This is what I'm talking about. If you're still the same person I know before, you would let the blood mess with your clothes and you wouldn't try to make a joke just to escape the conversation. This is what you want right, to find your old self again? You're bitch self?"

I was speechless. He made a point. A super-duper straight point that hits every bone in my body. I sighed and averted my gaze. I'm guilty as charged because I know the reason why I can't go back to my old self again because of Calyx himself.

It scares me if he found the real me, the real bitch me. That's why I always acted differently from the real me every time I'm with Calyx and in the long run, I forgot who I am. I become naive and stupid. Not because I love Calyx but because I'm scared that I will really lose him. But I am slowly losing him, aren't I?

"Give me 5 hours to think, Kaiser then I'll figure everything out." I finally said and he nodded.

I didn't finish the 5 hours that I said to Kaiser and I'm already on my way to my house. It's almost 2 PM and I know Calyx are just home with Jillian. How did I find out? Well, I activated all my gears and track him.

When I reached my house, I found Jillian watching movies. She's wearing silk lingerie that shows her flawless legs. She was too busy watching movies that she didn't notice my presence.

I fake a cough to catch her attention and I did. She immediately stood up and face me.

"What are you doing here? You shouldn't be here! You're not allowed to be here?" She said disconcerted. I raised my brows at her.

"Who said I'm not allowed to be at my own house, bitch?"

"Me! Get out!" I was surprised when she suddenly pushed. I'm taller than her that made me stop her easily. "Let go!" she shouted like I am holding her tightly which is not. I am just holding her to stop her from pushing me. But I was getting annoyed by her, so in the end, I let her go by pushing her too hard.

"Can you just stop acting like a kid, Jillian? Just please stop!" I said and I didn't let her talk and went upstairs.

I immediately found Calyx in his room. He is seating at the edge of the bed while looking at his phone. He looks like a mess. He's still wearing the same clothes last night and it seems like he didn't sleep yet.

"So Jillian didn't let you sleep?" I suddenly asked. He looks surprised to see me and immediately stood up.

"Severa." He whispered and he sounds so torn and lonely. And he was about to say something when Jillian suddenly came.

"Why can't you just leave us, Jillian?" I asked with exhaustion. It's exhausting to be in this kind of situation and I don't know why I need to experience all of this.

"You're the one who should leave. Calyx didn't love you at all!" she answered with so much conviction like she's really telling the truth. But I am looking at Calyx straightly to his eyes. And I don't know if I'm reading it correctly. Or I am just trying to pretend that what I am seeing from Calyx eyes that Jillian's been bluffing.

But I suck and buried the pain inside me and smiled at Jillian. "I know. You don't need to remind that to me, Jillian. But it doesn't matter. His reasons for marrying me don't matter at all. What matter is that he is my husband and I am his wife. Legally."

Jillian laughed like she's not afraid of what I've said. "Are you sure that everything is legal?" she asked.

I smiled again but now I am looking at Calyx. His jaw clenched and I know he knows the answer to that question.

"Why don't you ask Calyx himself, Jillian? I mean, I can say it's legal but I know you won't believe me. So, Calyx is the only one among of us here knows the answer to that question. Right, Calyx?"

"No, he can't make it legal. He's in love with me." She approached Calyx. "You still love me, right? You're still in love with me, Calyx right?" She asked, pathetically. And I rolled my eyes. Here we go again.

She looks pathetic to me. But I am confused about her deal with Calyx. I know they broke up years ago. Then she's back again wanting Calyx all by herself even though she knows he is married to me. But I am also confused and lost about the whole deal about my marriage with Calyx.

And I thought, our marriage is not legal. Not until I check everything earlier and I found out our marriage is indeed legal. Not a joke. Not just part of a big show I am not sure what.

Which is why it didn't take me 5 hours to think about what I'll do to keep our marriage. Because I have one enough reason to keep this marriage intact.

"Yes, Jillian. I still love you." I gasped when I heard Calyx answered Jillian.

I am already aware of that fact, but I am not prepared to hear it from him.

"But our marriage is legal. I am his husband."

And even though what he said last is the confirmation I need, at last. And I know it's hard to keep our marriage if I'm the only one loving him.