First Marriage Then Love

"Wait a minute." Tong Xiaojie called her to stop. "Can we talk?"

An Ran stopped, didn't look back, only frowned slightly, and said, "I don't think we have anything to talk about." She didn't want to deal with anyone from the Tong family! passed him and stepped into the elevator to leave.

Tong Xiaojie turned her head, looked at An Ran's back, and said, "I divorced Mo Fei!

".." She didn't want to learn anything about them!

Then she turned her head and reached out to press the button on the elevator without looking at her.

But Tong Xiaojie seemed to really want to make it clear to her, so she directly blocked the elevator door with her hand, looked at her steadily, and said, "Even if you don't want to talk about Mo Fei with me, I think we should have a talk. Let's talk about the relationship between you and the Tong family!"

An Ran raised her eyes to look at her, stared at her for a while, and then said indifferently, "I have nothing to do with your Tong family!"

"We Let's talk, I have something I want to tell you." Tong Xiaojie insisted, her hands still covering the iron door panel of the elevator.

An Ran looked at her for a while, and finally stepped out of the elevator.

The sky is not yet dark, but the sun has slowly set in the west, leaving a somewhat charming red in the sky, which is very beautiful.

An Ran and Tong Xiaojie sat down on the stone chairs beside the flower bed in the hospital. An Ran's gaze fell directly on the playful children on the lawn in front of her. She held her bag on her lap and did not speak.

Tong Xiaojie looked at her, or, to be more precise, at her swollen belly. It took a while for her to recover, and she slightly turned her face to the side; her eyes looked at the front in the same direction as An Ran, but there was no focal length. also slightly reddened.

The breeze caressed them, and the hair of the two of them fluttered in the air. After a long silence, Tong Xiaojie slowly said: "I also thought that I would have children before, and I could also be a happy child. Mother." The voice was a little low, and the mood could be heard to be a little depressed.

An Ran was taken aback, remembering how, when she was in the hospital, she came to her ward with a pale face and blamed her; she said her child had died, and it was all her fault! She was originally very pale, and at that time she was even more pale. If she was a fairy, then she was a fairy with broken wings at that time, and her whole body revealed a sickness.

An Ran said a little meanly: "You insist on talking to me, just to accuse me again of causing you to have a miscarriage?" If so, she thought that she was just wasting her time. She knows she hasn't done anything to cause anyone harm; why should she be held accountable for something she hasn't done?

Tong Xiaojie beside her smiled wryly, and slowly looked away, turned her head to look at her, and said with a self-deprecating voice, "Can you come bring me back my child?"

Her answer stunned An Ran, she turned her head unexpectedly, and when she met her eyes, she could see the sadness in her eyes.

"You.." Looking at her, An Ran didn't know what to say.

Tong Xiaojie withdrew her gaze, and turned her head to look at the children on the lawn in front of her again, but her eyes were still wandering, without any focus.

After a while, An Ran didn't know whether it had been a few seconds or a few minutes, When she regained her senses, Tong Xiaojie, who was beside her, said slowly, "I divorced Mo Fei." I had the urge to meet her at the elevator door.

An Ran looked at her, and said lightly, "You just said that."

"Yes, I've said it before." Tong Xiaojie repeated, then turned her head to look at her, fixedly looked at her, and said, "It was just an accident, I said I divorced Mo Fei, but I couldn't see anything from your face that expressed surprise or happiness." She imagined herself clapping her hands and applauding, and then mocking the fact that the love she had forcibly won could not last, and then mocking all the provocative things she had said to her in front of her; she had imagined everything. There were various reactions to her expression, but she did not expect her reaction to be so calm, without any waves at all.

"That's your marriage, your relationship, I have nothing to do with you or your relationship." An Ran said calmly, "I told you a long time ago that I have never intervened in your relationship, since six years ago. When he left me, that ended everything between me and Mo Fei. Regardless of whether we ever meet again.I don't want to have any unnecessary misunderstandings or problems with you, and I don't think of us as friends. In fact, I hate being involved in your family problem, so I don't want to interfere with other people's feelings." Looking at her, An Ran's words meant something.

"Hehe." Tong Xiaojie chuckled, that smile felt a bit self-deprecating, but she is also a smart person, so she could naturally hear the meaning of An Ran's words. Knowing that she was talking about herself, she only said with some self-mockery: "Yes, I was the one who intervened in your relationship at the beginning, and the real third party is me." As she spoke, she kept nodding her head. "It turns out that he was never mine..."

An Ran didn't say a word, but just shifted her eyes lightly. She never hated anything; she just wanted to go on with her life. At the beginning, she really thought that Mo Fei would be the lover who would accompany her for the rest of her life, but she never thought that it would be such an ending that caught her by surprise, and her self-esteem was broken down. Having allowed her to cowardly keep a man who betrayed her, she couldn't get over the hurt that that relationship brought to her for a long time, and she didn't dare to be easily emotional anymore, and she didn't dare to try to fall in love. For her, falling in love Marriage is a subject that must be completed. 

She used to think that because of that youthful love, she would no longer have the courage to believe in love and love someone with her heart. She was even prepared to treat marriage as a job, but... life is always full of...unexpected and pleasant surprises. She never believed in fate, nor did she believe in luck. Finally, she was fortunate to meet Su Yi Cheng. She never questioned and even believed that meeting Su Yi Cheng was the luckiest and happiest moment of her life. one thing. She began to believe that God really cared for her.

Sometimes she also wonders if this is her real fate. They have both been hurt by someone they trusted, and they have both experienced such a long wait for each other that perhaps those hurts and waiting are for later; for now, that they have met, God has given them opportunities and tests for each other, and because of such tests and hardships, they have kept themselves to each other.

An Ran considered it and smiled faintly, a satisfied and happy smile.

"He really didn't love me, even though I tried my best to love him, but he doesn't have me at all in his heart." Tong Xiaojie said, the smile on the corner of her mouth slowly widened, and then she laughed out loud, "Haha. In An Ran's eyes, that smile was a thousand times uglier than crying.

"Do you think I'm stupid, stupid, to have worked hard on a man for six years, and it took six years to truly know and accept him?"She asked firmly, smiling. "A man will not love me, no matter how much I do and how well I do, he will never have a place for me in his heart."

An Ran still didn't speak, because she didn't know what to say. In fact, looking at it this way, Tong Xiaojie was really a pitiful person. Is it possible that her marriage to him was merely a means for him to advance in her career, but he had never shown her genuine affection? However, their marriage is just a product of a certain purpose, and it is not too unexpected to get such a result in the end.

"I know he is just with me because of my background, my family background, I know he never loved me, I know how painful it was for him to choose between you and me, and I know he just left;  but have never forgotten you even once, I know all of this, I know everything." Tong Xiaojie said, turning her head to look into the distance, the breeze blew her fluttering hair into disorder and stuck it directly to her face

"I don't mind that he doesn't love me, and I don't mind that he is only with me for money, power, and status; even if he called your name in a daze while hugging me, I can pretend that I didn't hear anything, and I can try my best to tell myself that one day, sooner or later, Will live in her heart." I thought that time could change everything, I thought that after a long time, he could erase you from his memory, I thought that after a long time, he would be able to see my efforts; and realized my love for him and my kindness toward him, but..." Tong Xiaojie paused, and after a while, she slowly opened her mouth again, and said, "But I was wrong, so wrong, I don't know how to love, no matter how hard I try. After all, he can't see my goodness and my love, but it took me six years to see such a simple truth." As she spoke, she stretched out her hand and slowly covered her flat stomach, After a while, her hands tightened suddenly, clenched into fists, with a painful expression on his face, and he said, "The price is  my child's life!" Her tears fell without warning, without a sound.

An Ran was stunned; there was an indescribable shock in her heart; she was a pregnant woman; she still had a child in her belly; she knew the feeling of the child in the womb, even if she didn't move at first. But the feeling after knowing it was very wonderful. She couldn't describe it, but she could feel it.

An Ran didn't know what to say, just looked at her, and couldn't help asking: "You, are you okay?"

After calming down, she reached out to wipe the tears from her face, shook her head, and With a forced smile on the corner of his mouth, he said: "It's okay. Although the price is high, it is not meaningless. At least let me see clearly that this man is no longer worthy of my love. I have been stupid for six years, and it is time not to continue being stupid."

An Ran didn't know what to say, she just looked at her and nodded. It's strange to say that she began to feel pity for her.

"Do you know who he is with now?" Tong Xiaojie asked a little, pretending to be relaxed.

An Ran didn't speak, just shook her head, her eyes fixed on her.

"Xiao Xiao." Tong Xiaojie said, "You should be familiar with this name, it's that of your former colleague, and she is a charming woman."

An Ran just nodded, yes, she also remembered, the last time she and Su Yicheng went shopping hand in hand, met them in the pedestrian street, Xiao Xiao was very close to him, because she really only regarded him as a stranger, so she didn't deliberately remember such things, because she didn't care.

Her reaction was too flat, which surprised Tong Xiaojie, Looking at her with some doubts, she asked, "You're not surprised at all?" Even if she really doesn't have feelings for Mo Fei, her expression is still very weird, isn't it?

"I met them on the street before." An Ran spoke truthfully.

"Oh, that's it." "You know, I really hated you before, and I always thought it was because of you; that's why he can't accept me, can't love me because of you; if Mofei had met me earlier, maybe our ending wouldn't be like this," Tong Xiaojie stated emphatically.

"I've been with him impossible since Mofei told me six years ago that he wants to break up with me."An Ran clarified again, maybe she hadn't really let go of Mo Fei before meeting Su Yi Cheng, or she hadn't gotten out of the previous relationship, but she was very clear about one thing, even if Mo Fei turned back, they are also impossible.

"I didn't believe it before. There is an old saying that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Hehe, All his bad things are good in my eyes. At the beginning, he was the best, even perfect, because he was the best in my eyes. There is a strong sense of insecurity in our relationship. I always thought that your words were lies. I even thought that such an excellent man was coveted by everyone outside. Now that I think about it, I find it ridiculous. He is not exceptional, let alone perfect; how can a man who can't even be loyal to his feelings be called a good man?"

An Ran didn't say anything, but just nodded in agreement, yes no matter how good or capable he is, if he can't be loyal to his feelings, how can you be considered a good man.

Sighing lightly, Tong Xiaojie continued: "When he brought that woman to me and handed me the divorce agreement, I fully understood that the person this man loves the most is himself. At that time, I fully understood how wrong I was. I always thought it was your relationship, but that day I realized that even without you, there would be Lin An Ran, Zhang An Ran, Li An Ran, and these are actually just one of his excuses, a reason why he won't fall in love with me, but the real reason is not that he can't let anyone in his heart, can't forget anyone, but that the one he loves the most is himself, and has always been only himself."

"If he really loved you, back then he would not have left you because of opportunities or my family background, he valued himself more than anything else, and the one who thought of him the most was always himself." Tong Xiaojie said mockingly, "It would be a great waste of time to spend it with this time of man. heart, he will not fall in love with anyone, but himself."

The children laughing  on the lawn had been taken by their mothers at some point, and the originally lively lawn It was quiet, only the evening wind was blowing, and the sunset glow in the sky was slowly sinking, gradually being replaced by the dim night.

An Ran looked at the empty lawn at the moment, just nodding with a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, and said, "Is that all that you want to say?"

Tong Xiaojie also turned her head, looked at the lawn, and said, "Actually, I insist on talking to you today, because I just want to tell you clearly what is in my heart, and I know that I owe you an apology all the time."

Hearing this, An Ran turned to look at her, with an indescribable surprise on her face.

 "I'm sorry." Tong Xiaojie didn't turn her head, her eyes were still looking straight ahead, and she said calmly, "I was the one who interfered in your relationship back then. I owe you an apology for this." After finishing speaking, she turned her head, her, eyes meeting hers.

An Ran was really taken aback by her apology, and she even began to wonder if today's Tong Xiaojie was the same person as the Tong Xiaojie she met before?

Seeming to see through the doubts in her heart, Tong Xiaojie said with a smile: "Do you want to ask if I am the same Tong Xiaojie from before?"

Only then did An Ran recover, but she still couldn't hide the shock and surprise on her face.

"I hate you, because I always feel that you hinder me and Mo Fei, and because of your existence, Mo Fei won't try to love me and discover my goodness, but now I understand, the relationship between me and Mo Fei It's always been a question of whether I love him or not. It has nothing to do with anyone. Like this, I have no reason to hate you." Tong Xiaojie made a mocking remark.

An Ran was stunned, just looked at her, didn't respond for a while, didn't nod, or speak.

Tong Xiaojie didn't look at her, turned her head, stood up directly, only looked at the dim sunset in the distance, and said: "It's my business to apologize, it's your business to accept it or not, I just want to express my regret , I don’t care if you accept it or not. Because I don’t want to be friends with you, and I will treat you as if I don’t know you when we meet next time, because I’m going to start a new life." Tong Xiaojie said The corner of the mouth curled slightly into a smile.

She looked at An Ran with a serious expression and said: "By the way, apart from explaining Mo Fei's matter to you today, please don't disturb our house Just like you said, you have nothing to do with our Tong family!"

An Ran regained her composure, understood what she meant, and thought to herself that the Tong family already knew about it, but it didn't matter whether she knew it or not, whether it was Tong Wenhai or the Tong family, it meant nothing to her. She looked at Tong Xiaojie and said firmly: "I have nothing to do with your Tong family. My father has always been Gu Hengwen. He used to be, he is now, and he will be in the future!"

Tong Xiaojie didn't say anything more, just nodded , turned around, and was about to step on the path made of cobblestones, and go directly to the path outside the garden.

An Ran withdrew her gaze, did not look at her, turned her head to look at the sunset that was slowly dimming in the sky for a while, then raised her hand to look at the watch on her wrist, it was getting late. She waited for him in the ward, and got up to go back to Lin Xiaofen's ward. Although she didn't know if he was busy, she decided to go back first, so as not to be anxious when he returned to the ward and didn't see her.

But then she felt that the two little babies in her stomach had moved suddenly, and she didn't know whether it was a small fist or a small foot kicking her belly hard. There was a slight pain, but it moved her inexplicably.

With a chuckle, she stretched out her hand to touch her slightly protruding belly, with the corners of her mouth half raised, she lowered her head and whispered to the baby in her stomach, "Baby, do you seem to see your father too?" I'm not sure if it's a coincidence or not. It was so miraculous, after she finished asking, the two little babies in her stomach moved again with punches and kicks, which made An Ran laugh out loud, "Hehe, okay, let's go find Dad together." Speaking slowly, she stood up and prepared to go to the hospital building.

But just when An Ran stood up, she turned her head and was not ready to leave, but at some point Ling Ran had come to her side, and she was looking at her with a gloomy face at the moment, with a smile that was not a smile at the corner of her mouth. It looks a little gloomy, a little scary. 

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Yiyi wants to say: 

Friday is the only day I'm resting :) I won't be updating any series. 

Here are the series that I'm currently working 

First Marriage Then Love 《先婚厚爱》.

Pampering My Husband Every Day 

My Boyfriend from the Physics Department

Film Emperor’s Wedding Diary

The Rich Girl Will Not Be Poor