Even Though You Are Crazy.

"Have you calmed down now?"Li Jun whispered gently.

"Sis. You can talk to us right?" Liu Liu also said from his bed.

Yu Yan sniffed and calmed down her emotions. She started by sighing dramatically.

"It's fine now. I am just worried about my salary,that's all. It was my first real job, you know. Ah! I wanted to go and drink with my colleagues and sing a few songs inside a karaoke bar.Get drunk and stumble back home at night... My dream is all wasted now" Yu Yan pretended to wipe a tear.

Li Jun *_*

"I will get you your job back" Li Jun said after processing his thoughts.

"Hai.. How can I go back now? Wouldn't that just embarrass me more and if I do that, they will label me as a woman depending on a rich men's t.h.i.g.h. Even now they think I married an old man from the Li family branch."

"Who said that?." Li Jun asked startled.

"Hiya..Its no one. No one said anything alright. You don't need to fire anyone.Its just gossiping."

"Just gossiping?Leave that for me to worry about"

"I am warning you husband. If I hear that my colleagues are fired tomorrow. I will give you a divorce letter the next day".. Yu Yan huffed.

" So it was your colleagues..hmmm" Li Jun edited her out.

"Li Jun!" Yu Yan warned.

"Okay, Okay Let's go home now. It's already late.I have an early meeting."

"En. Liu Liu will you be okay?"

"I am okay sis. Now that you are fired. Come see me early tomorrow."

Yu Yan giggled. "My thoughts exactly."

BACK AT MOON PALACE.

"Somehow I find it hilarious that you got fired" Li Jun said as he came out from the shower.

"What don't you find hilarious?.Everything that makes me unhappy tickles you" Yu Yan quipped as she put down the hair dryer.

"Now, that's not true. You are mean to say that." Li Jun kissed her hair, watching their reflections in the vanity.

They were truly a good looking couple.

Yu Yan turned her head to give him more excess as his kisses continued.

"I know.." Yu Yan m.o.a.n.e.d.

"Come here..." Li Jun lifted Yu Yan off of her feet and headed for their bed.

Gently he laid her down on the soft mattress. She looked up blushing a little.

"So beautiful" Li Jun mumbled and took her mouth in a slow and gentle kiss.

Yu Yan m.o.a.n.e.d into his kiss,sliding her hands down and into his open robe- his skin still damped from their shower.

She was familiar with his kisses, familiar with his touches, the way he would give her p.l.e.a.s.u.r.e first when they had the time and the way he would rush her when his carnal instincts took over. The way he would control his wild cravings for her sake, the way he would whisper promises of love into her ears as she came undone....It was all she was familiar with...all that she love..all that she knew she didn't deserve.

Yu Yan cried out as he entered her.

"Are..are you hurt?" Li Jun asked guiltily.He should have taken time to please her first.

"No...no..i think its okay now. Move a little gently" Yu Yan was not prepared as she had been in her own thoughts , her body still obeying her husband's tunes.

She tried to accommodate her husband's big size by moving and adjusting her body.

"Did you actually ignore me as I worked hard?" Li Jun laughed as he figured out what had happened. He punished her by going harder.

"Ah! I...I was just..thinking okay?" Yu Yan protested, pushing on his waist. But he didn't budge this time.

"Now is not the time to think. What do you say?" He pinned her arms over her head and whispered into her ears.

"....Everybody thinks. It's...its not just me. Dont...tell me that you.. you.. never think when we are doing it " Yu Yan loudly protested as Li Jun went harder on her body, enclosing her body under his weight.

Yu Yan could only scream as it hurt a bit. It was a mix of p.l.e.a.s.u.r.e and pain.

Li Jun laughed loudly near her ears.

"I do think. But It's about you and how to please you more and more until you forget everything else but me..until, you smell completely of me." Li Jun took her mouth again into a deep kiss, muffling Yu Yan's screams of p.l.e.a.s.u.r.e .

Yu Yan did not sleep that night. Not because of Li Jun but because of her own thoughts.

Her tears leaked onto her hands as she cried silently.She cried heartbreakingly as she sat on the toilet seat, alone inside the closed bathroom.

She replayed her life, her unhappiness, her unluckiness.She found a family in Li Jun.She thought she could be happy,finally. She thought she could bring him happiness even if they came from two different worlds.Even if she was not worthy of him.He loved her truly and she loved him too.Nothing should have gone wrong, right? But it did. She truly was unlucky in this life.

Yu Yan cried as she replayed the conversation with the doctor again and again in her head.

"Mrs Li, I am sorry.Your w.o.m.b is not healthy enough to carry a baby.I am afraid you cannot give birth in the future. Might I suggest adopting children?..."

Yu Yan cried bitterly as she cursed her life and her unluckiness.

She only wanted a happy family.A good husband like Li Jun and cute little children resembling their handsome father. Li Jun also deserved that much right?

"Aren't I a little too unlucky?" She said as she continued to cry on her own.

'aren't I a little too much unworthy for Li Jun?' She thought bitterly.

That night she cried for over an hour until Li Jun woke up and knocked on the bathroom door to check on her.

Yu Yan made a decision that night. A decision to leave.