Defeated By Love

Translated by Fairy_Dust

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He just wanted to see someone.

But there was no reason and he couldn’t find a reason to see her.

In fact, it was probably the best ending if they just stopped all kinds of communication. After all, looking at him now. Even if she didn’t dislike him, he was extremely embarrassed by his own appearance.

However, it had been so long and getting to see her again.

Meeting once or twice. He originally thought that it was just a small encounter, but he never imagined that the desire which he had restrained all that time would suddenly reappear because of those meetings.

He wanted to see her, he really wanted to see her.

So he tried his best to make reasons.

Just to meet her.

After putting down the last domino, Xie Ruhe reached out and pulled the wheelchair over. He put his hands on the armrests and using the strength in his hands. He gritted his teeth and tried to get back on the wheelchair.

Fang Wencheng moved closer but he didn’t go forward to help.

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Because he knew that Xie Ruhe didn’t need it.

After a while, Xie Ruhe sat on the wheelchair with sweat on his forehead.

Seeing his appearance, Fang Wencheng hesitated for a few seconds before thickening his skin and he reminded him: “Young master. You haven’t done your rehabilitation today. The rehabilitation doctor has come over.”

Xie Ruhe was silent but he wasn’t angry. He tapped his fingertips on the armrest, again and again, as if playing some song. He didn’t seem to be in a good mood and his voice was deep.

“Is it any use?”

He would always suddenly enter such moods.

He would feel hopeless, he felt that doing all those things were useless. He felt that nothing was worth doing. He didn’t think that there was anything wrong with just giving up and living his currently life decently.

“It’s definitely useful. If you don’t do it, there won’t be any hope at all. Your muscles will waste away.” Fang Wencheng sincerely tried to persuade him. “Even if there’s only a little hope, I hope that you won’t give up.”

After a long time, Xie Ruhe said: “All right.”

Fang Wencheng was relieved: “Then I’ll have the doctor prepare.”

Before leaving, Fang Wencheng turned on the stereo again for Xie Ruhe.

The loud rock music sounded in the empty room, causing the eardrums to vibrate and the people listening to feel numb. Xie Ruhe lowered his eyes, looked at his legs and pursed his lips. It was hard to tell what he was thinking.

It was unknown how long had passed. Xie Ruhe was thinking of something and then silently shouted “Shu Nian”. He said a sentence after that in a daze.

His voice was gnete, as if he wanted those words to melt in the air.

“I don’t want to be a cripple.”

Shu Nian was living the life of an insect. Every day she would wake up and run to the studios. She wouldn’t leave the studio until 12 pm. After getting home, she would take a shower and then go straight to bed.

Day after day, that was how she lived.

Deng Qingyu once tentatively asked her if she wanted to try for another job.

Shu Nian didn’t even consider it and immediately rejected her.

She felt that she had to live doing what she liked. She liked voice acting, liked that profession, liked the feeling of staying in the studio, liked to use her voice to create a character and she liked the joy sounds brought to her.

She was doing what she liked.

If she continued to live like that, a long life for her didn’t seem to be that difficult anymore.

In the blink of an eye, November came to an end.

Recently, Shu Nian had no job. Thinking that peak season was approaching, she simply gave herself a day off and didn’t go to the studio. On Thursday, she talked about the treatment time with Doctor Wang Yue and moved it to the afternoon.

During the session, Shu Nian did most of the talking. Wang Yue just guided her.

After the appointment, Wang Yue checked Shu Nian in all the categories and turned over the paper in her hand.

“Shu Nian, according to your own self-assessment scale, your indicators have reached the normal range. You can control your emotions well now and it doesn’t seem to have a big impact on your daily life.”

Shu Nian looked at her like a child waiting to be praised.

Wang Yue’s voice was very gentle: “I think the treatment plan can be extended. The next visit can be one month later. Are you okay with that?”

She was moving towards full recovery.

Shu Nian was in a good mood and she quickly nodded: “Okay.”

After a while, Shu Nian said goodbye to Wang Yue and left the department. She took the escalator down to the third floor. When she was just about to turn a corner and continue going down, someone suddenly called her from behind.

“Shu Nian?”

Upon hearing the voice, Shu Nian unconsciously looked back.

The man was tall and the sleeve on his left arm was pulled to the elbow. The exposed skin was wrapped with gauze. He looked like he had been injured. Compared with the last time they met, he looked more gruff like he had just come back from a mission.

Shu Nian stopped in place and stared at the wound on his hand.

“Officer He, are you hurt?”

He You raised his eyebrows and scanned his arm with lowered eyes. He didn’t care much about the wound that resembled a mosquito bite. He curled his lips loosely which showed no shape: “Distressed?”

Shu Nian was used to that kind of look on him but she still shook her head.

“Be careful.”

He had always been careless. He didn’t take her words to heart and sneered: “What’s the point of paying attention to this kind of wound? It’s just a scratch. Those knives were only itching my skin.”

Shu Nian’s eyes widened a little and she was surprised. “You think being stabbed is like being scratched?”

He yawned and lazily hummed.

Shu Nian didn’t quite understand: “Then why did you come to the hospital?”

“…”

He was suddenly stunned speechless by her. He looked at her with an indescribable expression. For a long time, his lips moved as if he wanted to say something but no words came out.

The next moment, Shu Nian’s mobile phone rang. She retracted her gaze and looked down.

It was a call from Li Qing.

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